My New Life

My life is different. An amazingly better different. After lots of thought a prayer, I quit my job and became a full time stay at home Mom. I worked at the same job since High School and the more education I got, I just kept moving up the job ladder. Most people would think I am CRAZY for leaving my job. I got paid really well for the amount of hours and work I actually put into my job. I was already part time, and even that was too much. I am so so so grateful for the job I had and I will truly miss all my friends and patients I've met. 

My last day of work.... my going away party : )

So, it was a GiAnT leap of faith, and I can honestly say that without a doubt, I have absolutely no regrets! It was just time. Sawyer was getting to the point where when I left for work, he would stand in the garage with Brett and just cry as I drove away.  Leaving my job was a huge sacrifice but I gained an even greater reward. 
   I have now been a SAHM for a month. Sawyer's speech has tripled,  my bed gets made, we have dinner as a family, I get plenty of sleep, and most importantly.... my little family is together a lot more. Brett is loving me being at home too : ) I know its the little things, but for someone that has never got to fully enjoy the little things.... the little things are so much sweeter : ) 
   When I was little, I remember my Mother always taking us kids to the library for kiddie reading time. It something I always wanted to do with my kids and then when Sawyer came, I was always too tired or too busy with other things. Last week I took him to the library for kiddie reading time for the first time. I saw him sit on his little carpet, holding his train, and watching the lady reading a story about caterpillars. My eyes just starting welling up with tears and I just felt overwhelmed with gratitude. It was in that moment.... seeing him listen to the story..... that I had all the conformation that I needed. I did the right thing. 

My little Buddy : )

Time matters... especially when it comes to not being able to get it back. 5 years from now, I know I won't be mad at my self for missing out on these moments if I had stayed at my job. I'm enjoying the daylight (I worked night shifts), enjoying my stress free mind, and living the life I was led too. I am soaking it all up & now I'm ready for our next new adventure in the life that is waiting for us : ) 

We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell