Adoption UPDATE.

    We are at a weird place right now. Our profile is DONE, our home study is DONE, our mile high stack of forms are COMPLETE and sadly our profile still isn't live. We are working with 2 agencies and the one doing our Homestudy has been very slow at processing paperwork. We finished everything weeks ago but until it is all approved by bosses and transferred to our other agency we just have to sit and wait. We are trying not to sweat about it but with our time running out, we can't help but to get anxious.

    At times "They" feel so close. At times we feel like we should be doing more to find them but what??? we don't even know. They are on our minds and we are glad that they are. We don't know why there have been SOOO many delays and hang ups but we trust that it will work out. Hopefully our paths will cross soon.... at just the right time. We are very mindful of them and the waiting has given us time to feel God's tenderness for them already. For that we are grateful. There is something "different" about this adoption but I don't know what. I feel like there is something very specific and sacred about it. 

   Patience is something that we have had to learn. Those that know our story know that we had to wait a long time to grow our family. Even though at that time we hated every second of waiting, it was SO worth it in the end. It was so hard to be patient when we had no answers and couldn't make sense of the waiting. However, we learned that if we would have just trusted Heavenly Father all along then it could have saved us a lot of heartache. He was in the details all along and we just didn't know it. Just as he is in the details now.       
  We do wonder how things our going on "their" end. What's their story? Where are they at in their journey? Is she scared? At Peace? Can they "feel" our love yet? We so hope that they are surrounded by lots of love...earthly and heavenly. 

     We don't know when or where things will come together but if we really trust him, and we do, it doesn't really matter what we don't understand.

"We must unrush our pace for connections and compassion to take place."